cluckingmad Posted May 16, 2010 Share Posted May 16, 2010 I second that! I remember how ashamed I felt at first, I actually fought against the drugs and came off them as I hated them so much. Took me another year to accept that what was happening to me wasn't my fault, that I'd had it since birth and that I didn't have to suffer anymore. The silly thing being that if someone breaks a leg you'd never dream of telling them to run a marathon on it, yet those of us who are affected by depression or other mental health issue feel that we have to carry on without help or treatment. I don't agree with giving out these tablets to everyone because they simply aren't needed by everyone, in the same way that antibiotics don't work if what you have isn't caused by a bacterium... it took me a long time to accept who I was, the OCD is part of me but doesn't own me anymore. It took about 5 years and a wonderful friend to help me accept that. I now imagine my OCD as a gremlin sitting on my shoulder, everytime I feel it starting to get its claws into me I can tell it to "go away" in stronger terms (!), strangely enough its a technique counsellors and phychiatrists also recommend I believe it can also be beneficial with depression, although my depression came from my underlying condition however my brother also uses the technique and it works for him too (he does have severe depression/lack of self-confidence). Big hug to everyone on here xx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
The Dogmother Posted May 17, 2010 Share Posted May 17, 2010 Good to see some fellow Hertfordshire-ites on the forum; I'm originally from Elstree I had a nasty bout of post-natal depression after having my daughter - being left on yer own, holding a newborn is enough to get anyone down. I resisted medication and worked through it with light therapy and exercise. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chickenNutter Posted May 17, 2010 Share Posted May 17, 2010 Can I add a very gentle word of caution here? I know you need to stay positive, and part of that is to make light of the condition. However using words like 'bonkers' 'crazy' and 'mad cow' can sometimes be unhelpful! I find when people are newly diagnosed, they can be quite distressed at having a 'mental health problem'. It takes a lot of explaining to get them to understand that it is a chemical imbalance in the body that causes psychological symptoms of depression, they are not 'cracking up' or 'losing it'. So carry on being positive, keep taking the happy pills, but just be aware of how is appears to someone who doesn't understand yet OK, that's todays lecture over with Yes, good point, Snowy Howells, and I certainly wouldn't be that flippant or use those terms with someone newly diagnosed, I agree it may well be unhelpful! Just explaining that the more people I discuss this issue with the more you realise quite how widespread it is, which is a sad reflection on modern life, and that varying degrees of 'bonkersness' is actually quite normal these days! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted May 17, 2010 Share Posted May 17, 2010 I've been on Citilopram since January and I also take mine at night and have no side effects. I did feel rather woosy at first but it turned out they didn't like the painkillers I was taking so I changed those and everything is OK now. I also take Amitriptyline at night and have for years (bruxism) and they work well together. Mum has recently tried Citilopram and they made her feel very sick so she stopped. She also has stopped her Amitriptyline as she was suffering from a lot of anxiety and that seems to have got better too. Of course now she can't sleep for pain! Its a balancing act. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
whoopsie Posted May 17, 2010 Share Posted May 17, 2010 I've had two 'bouts' now both of which have resulted in paroxetine and counselling (couldn't have done without either). It's horrible the stigma attatched but like so many people on here have said, depression is an inbalance, and gets better with treatment. IT GETS BETTER!!!!!!!! Remember that, but i'm constantly reminding myself that I can go backwards as well as forwards, and my wonderful GP insisted that there's absolutely nothing wrong with that. She was right too - I got back to my 'normal' self a lot quicker once I accepted it. I'm also trying to accept the fact that i'm NOT Superwoman and I CANNOT do everything, and sometimes that means TAKING TIME OFF. This might help! Good friends help you get better much quicker too - especially when they appreciate how you feel. Hang in there. Vicky xx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Omletina Kyckling Posted May 19, 2010 Share Posted May 19, 2010 I used to take fluoxetine (Prozac) but I'm now mirtazapine as the fluoxetine wasn't really doing much. Mirtazapine is a sedative so I have to take it at night, otherwise I'd be dozing off. I find I have quite a lot of really nasty nightmares, whether this is down to the ADs, or the Methotrexate and Leflunomide I take for my arthritis, or the general upheaval going on in my life, I don't know. I'm hoping that once my life gets back on track that things will improve generally. I hate having to take tablets to get through my depression, but had to admit that I needed help and that constantly being told to "Pull yourself together" wasn't going to do it for me! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
keyhole kate Posted May 19, 2010 Share Posted May 19, 2010 Hi Omletina I was only just thinking of you glad to see you on the forum I have just had my Citilopram upped to 60mg today as I am going through a bad patch. I handed my notice in last week at a new job after only 3 weeks as I just couldn't cope, OH told me to which helped me feel less guilty my GP said she thinks I did the right thing I hope the bank manager sees it that way too I have been spending lots of time with the girls which always makes me feel better and staining my new walk in run green and pootling about on my allotment. I have come to the conclusion I need a job on a farm Hugs to anyone else having a rubbish time at the moment remember you are not alone Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fantasticjudyann Posted May 21, 2010 Share Posted May 21, 2010 My doctor is one of the liberated kind and thinks that depression is caused by an imbalance rather like insulin as somebody earlier said. I take100mg of Sertraline (an SSRI ) each morning after breakfast and it has changed my life quite frankly. My GP is happy for me to stay on them permanently. The best thing is I have never had any side effects whatever. I think I must be really lucky. My life is the best it's ever been Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ms Tilytinkle Posted May 24, 2010 Share Posted May 24, 2010 (edited) Sorry decided to delete my, too long, personal rambling mail. Thanku for the info shared , its all been so helpful reading. My heartfelt thoughts & prayers are with us all. Knowing theres no simple solution & no path the same for all, we can all just do our best at every given moment. MsTilymighttrytakingtStJohnsWort Edited May 25, 2010 by Guest Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
welovemarmite Posted May 24, 2010 Share Posted May 24, 2010 I am not on these tablets but I guess they all work in different ways. Yes there may be side effects, they are likely to be little. They can also be shortlived. But, go in with an open mind. If its not working then go back and try a different kind. For me personally they helped but every single person is different. What doesnt work for one may work for another and vice versa. Just be there to support and listen, and do come and talk when you feel the need. I am succesfully cutting back at the moment, it can be done but done run before you can walk. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
scarlettohara Posted May 25, 2010 Author Share Posted May 25, 2010 Hi, just wanted to say I don't take and never have taken anti-depressants, but my Mum was on everything that was available in the 70's, and I'm just soo glad the drugs have moved forward..... but going back to Scarletto'hara's original posting....evenings seem to be a particular problem, but (it seems to me) that part of what is going on is grieving for what has gone, and I'm not really sure you can medicate for that....for my own personal tragedy, I found the best way to move forward and start to feel better again was counselling...In the meantime, sending love and hugs, keep the faith in yourself, you will come through it.xxx Thanks sadietoo - I have had counselling and found it a huge help. My counsellor was lovely, one of the things she told me was that it was important for me to feel in control in difficult situations and this does help. You are right about evenings (I have since spoken to my GP who said no harm in trying but it wouldn't make much difference) it's something I just have to deal with so I am now saving up gardening for the late afternoons and have also applied for another job. Thanks for all your good wishes and hugs to everyone having a difficult time Sara x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
casiraghiegg Posted May 26, 2010 Share Posted May 26, 2010 I've been on escitalopram for 7 years (I can't believe it either) and it is my happy pill, keeps my moods level. I upped my dose last year because of work stress and bullying by my staff and now feel ready to drop the dose a bit as things have moved on. That is a first for me. I don't mind taking it as I feel normal with it, I can function, I'm me again. I too had issues after my partner of 12 years & I split and one day everything came tumbling out of the cupboard in my brain where they were locked away. I've had a big clear out and now the doors shut quite nicely thanks! I'm lucky that my employer offers excellent support and a fantastic counselling system (the NHS said I wasn't ill enough for counselling). My counsellor had an even better analagy than the diabetes - she likened depression and to Parksinson's Disease as the effect on the brain is apparently similar (messages not getting through). She told me that no one tells a Parkinsons sufferer to stop taking their medication or to'pull themselves together' do they. Please don't be offended - that's what she said. My doc recommended taking my cipralex at night as if I'm going to get drowsy that will help with sleep (ByTheWay a friend recommended Valerian - a herbal remedy - it helped me and I didn't get that 'Nytol hangover' with it - but ask your doctor first). The one thing my illness has helped me do is understand others (including my staff at times) who also suffer. Try and and if you can't then I'll do an extra one for you. By the way, I got one of these last weekend from a super couple in Hertfordshire Herts again) and I'm going to get this weekend. I'm so excited I do hope Maddie, Kitty & Milly (my 3 cats) love them as much I'm going to... All the best to everyone Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fantasticjudyann Posted May 26, 2010 Share Posted May 26, 2010 Well done you that's exactly what I think and feel . Well done also for getting your Eglu and chooks-they really are the best things as are the beautiful cats. I really do wish you well Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
scarlettohara Posted May 26, 2010 Author Share Posted May 26, 2010 Your chooks and eglu are the best 'therapy' I'm so pleased for you My girls have turned my life around (plus the support of my wonderful Mum and sons of course ). Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mostin Posted May 27, 2010 Share Posted May 27, 2010 It's so true...even on my darkest days, when I don't want to even look at another human being, I will happily watch my chooks and the cats out in the garden for hours, and they always make me smile. They got me outside every day in the winter when nothing else would have Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...