charly1979 Posted July 3, 2013 Share Posted July 3, 2013 (edited) Sorry for using the NB as a place to lay down my woes I should be over the moon jumping for joy !! 2 months ago after 3 long years of job hunting, I landed myself quite unexpected my dream job or so I thought only the last 10 days have been awful I just feel Im not getting anything right and haven't been able to prove my worth to my boss. Its just getting me down I am about to head in and I have a sick feeling and want to start crying again (which I have done most of the night so we can add exhausted to my emotions too) Im trying so hard and giving 100% commitment, I only meant to be doing 20 hrs a week but last month I did 127 which juggling childcare for 3 kids isn't easy ....... I just want a day that I can feel proud off and that hasn't happened, I have my 3 month review in August and I have such a feeling that they will say they don't want me to continue which will be heart breaking. I am working with robots I took one of my projects home last night with the hope to be able to finish it and really impress the boss however its not gone to plan I cant work out if its me or faulty parts (I suspect its more likely to be me). Again apologies for this post but even typing it out had made me feel a tiny bit better ............ just need a bolt of inspiration and for stuff to go right today then I will be back on track Edited August 29, 2013 by Guest Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Angie Posted July 3, 2013 Share Posted July 3, 2013 Stop bending over backwards to Please everyone and impress them with your brilliance. It is your dream job. Settle into the job ,give yourself the time to settle into the job. You will be noticed . All these extra hours are not helping when you are the newbie, it is adding stress to your situation. Take a deep breath ....step back.....and look at what you are doing . You got the job , they want you ,it is a New job and that is stressful as it is. Don't be afraid to say No to all those extra hours. They shouldn't be overloading you when it is out of your contract hours and you are in the early days, or at your review you'll be in floods of tears and wanting to leave. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Patricia W Posted July 3, 2013 Share Posted July 3, 2013 Has anyone been assigned to mentor you at work? It seems as though you aren't getting the support that a new employee should get. Is there anyone you can go to for help? In the meantime, try to stay strong - we're all here for you! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
The Dogmother Posted July 3, 2013 Share Posted July 3, 2013 I agree with the above. It takes about 2 months to actually feel competent. I am 4 months into a new job, having done the same job for the previous 10 years; it is also the job of my dreams. Whilst the skills I need are very similar to my last role, the environment and challenges are entirely different and there are still occasions when I don't know what the protocol is for something, or mess up. Stick with it and concentrate on the fact that you CAN do the job, accentuate your positives. I would also have a quiet word about the extra hours, which are beyond the pale if they are outside your contracted hours. When you are new, you don;t like to rock the boat, but you have childcare to think of and they can't expect you to work the extra. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chickencam Posted July 3, 2013 Share Posted July 3, 2013 I suspect that you are being too hard on yourself, a new job of any kind is always tough especially after a break from working. You need to step back work less hours and clear your head. Your employer will not be getting your best if you are stressed and exhausted. You have the skills because without them you wouldn't have been given the job in the first place. Take a deep breath and do it your way, if it doesn't work then it wasn't meant to be, trying to be something that you are not never works in the long run. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Luvachicken Posted July 3, 2013 Share Posted July 3, 2013 Just wanted to offer my support too. I know what it is like to work hard and be taken advantage of. I hope tomorrow is a better day for you Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
charly1979 Posted July 3, 2013 Author Share Posted July 3, 2013 Thanks everyone that's all helped: Today started off a nightmare me practically snatching my friends last ciggy off her as I was so upset, anyway I plodded on at work with a few things I needed to do, the boss had said last week if something isn't working take a break and look at something else he said its like spinning plates, well I had an hour off to do a kiddy run (my youngest 1st starter day at school) when I got back nothing still seemed to be working I felt like all my plates had crashed to the ground but again I just took a break looked at something else etc ! Finally got one of my robots to do something it was meant to still needs tweaks but I did it ! Then I had a breakthrough setting up a new share point system, but I was so overwhelmed and relieved that it work I ended up bursting into to tears so I expect now the boss thinks im a right numpty. Still we had a chat and it doesn't all seem as bad as I think. I think im just putting too much pressure on myself and in the process my confidence is taking a battering. Anyway I have tomorrow off which is good Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
soapdragon Posted July 3, 2013 Share Posted July 3, 2013 Bless you!! We are very often much too hard on ourselves and think that we all need to be 100% perfect.....its just NOT possible and the sooner we realise that the better! However, its not always that easy when you are slap bang in the middle of a situation! I am trying to get back into the world of work as ES is now nearly 9 and YS 5 and have a huge confidence crisis; its hard trying to balance the demands of a family and a job but you can only do your best.........but if you havn't worked for a while its daunting! If this is what you want to do then keep at it girl; you will probably find that you get to a stage where things suddenly 'click' into place but this will take time. Have faith in yourself and try to relax into it! Hugs! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
charly1979 Posted July 25, 2013 Author Share Posted July 25, 2013 Well after putting all my effort etc into my job stressing over everything for little thanks I got told today that they wouldn't be renewing my initial 3 month contract (its up 10th August) Gutted but relieved too !! They said they felt I was needing too much support ?? not that I have had much at all really I haven't had time to progress on one project because I kept getting asked to do other stuff and of all the numerous things id been asked to do it was just one project I was struggling with which I had started to have a proper look at today. Close friends who have seen my mode dramatically go down and who have seen how much work and effort I have given all feel that I have been used by the company, I feel a bit of a failure but trying to look at the +ve side of things and the fact that the job had changed from what I had originally agreed to do Onwards and Upwards hey lets hope it doesn't take me another 3 years to find my next one ! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ain't Nobody Here Posted July 25, 2013 Share Posted July 25, 2013 Sounds like they're to blame, rather than you! Could be a blessing in disguise . At least you can relax now and stop worrying about the job. I'm sure something much better will be just round the corner. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Charlottechicken Posted July 25, 2013 Share Posted July 25, 2013 Totally agree with everything ANH says! Your perfect job is still out there, waiting for you Take care and good luck with your search xxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Purplemaniacs Posted July 25, 2013 Share Posted July 25, 2013 I am sorry to hear that but perhaps it is a good thing. I am sure there is a job out there waiting for you where you will be appreciated and treated with respect. Chrissie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
soapdragon Posted July 26, 2013 Share Posted July 26, 2013 One door closes but another one opens.......sounds rather like a blessing in disguise; seems things would not have changed if they had renewed your contract and you would have been under more and more pressure. Good luck in your search! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Luvachicken Posted July 26, 2013 Share Posted July 26, 2013 Awww, I'm sorry they didn't renew your contract. Sometimes things happen for the best, although it may not feel like that right now, and something better will come along. Best of luck for finding another job. I am going to enjoy my Summer holidays first and then start looking for another job. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
newcountrygirl Posted July 26, 2013 Share Posted July 26, 2013 Sorry to hear this. I have heard quite a few stories like this recently - it makes you wonder if they are just using it as a way of getting someone to work but not having to pay them what they are due as a permanent staff member. Dont be downhearted - it sounds like they didnt deserve such a concientious worker. Something much better is bound to come along for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Patricia W Posted July 26, 2013 Share Posted July 26, 2013 I think you're better off without them. You wouldn't want to live with that stress permanently. I'm sure something else is around the corner for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
charly1979 Posted August 20, 2013 Author Share Posted August 20, 2013 A little update: Actually been enjoying not working etc went back to the gym and had a new plan created etc Anyway whilst on holiday (I still am till Friday) I had a txt and missed call from a girl I worked with asking for me to call her as she had an idea for me to work with one of the robots ? I have called and they would like me to do some work with a particular robot and to meet with her when I'm home next week I am nervous about meeting but mum reckons its worth finding out what's being offered, I know it's likely to be ad hoc as such, I wonder if I am likely to be used again or wether that have realised that I was actually worth employing (if that makes sense) I did ask if everyone wanted me back because if I sense that there is anyone not happy then I will be out like a shot ! Apparently they do ?? Very nervous etc a bit peeved that I worrying about this whilst I am holiday but if it does work out then that's a bonus Either way will keep you posted Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
soapdragon Posted August 20, 2013 Share Posted August 20, 2013 Sounds def worth investigating.....good luck and keep us posted! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
C&T Posted August 20, 2013 Share Posted August 20, 2013 Good luck! Perhaps they have found a role they perceive you being more suitable for?? Whatever it is, good luck and hope it all works out! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Purplemaniacs Posted August 20, 2013 Share Posted August 20, 2013 I agree with soapdragon, it is definitely worth a go. Try not to worry and enjoy the rest of your holiday. Chrissie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chickencam Posted August 20, 2013 Share Posted August 20, 2013 You may find that they are happy to work with you rather than against you. It sounds like you have a good specialist skill set, therefore, make sure that you work on your own terms, sounds like a good opportunity to do this. Good luck. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Patricia W Posted August 20, 2013 Share Posted August 20, 2013 They wouldn't chase after you if they didn't want you. Go for it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ain't Nobody Here Posted August 20, 2013 Share Posted August 20, 2013 That does sound hopeful, try to think positively about it - it may all work out really well . Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
charly1979 Posted August 29, 2013 Author Share Posted August 29, 2013 I have had my meeting ! I was incredibly nervous wasn't sure how it would go etc or who would be there. Anyway it all seems to have gone well, I even had an apology as they realised that too much too soon was expected and assured that I was very much liked etc and that maybe they had been a bit hasty in the meeting where we mutally ended my contract I have been offered a role back with the company on an 'ad hoc' basis which suits me well especially with 3 kids and a husband the role has been altered but pretty much the one that I was offered when I first started. It was also reassuring to hear that one of the Robots I was having so much trouble with has also caused someone who is more qualified than me some issues Anyway we shall see how it all goes fingers crossed this will be much better. I would also like to THANK you ALL for your kind words and advice it really helped me through it all and work things out. Your are all amazing guys xxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ain't Nobody Here Posted August 29, 2013 Share Posted August 29, 2013 That's fantastic, I'm so pleased . See? We all told you it wasn't your fault . Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
