Joojoo Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 Sorry I really need to get some things off my chest as I just feel like screaming at the moment! After having 2 abnormal smear tests in the past 6 months I had to go for a colposcopy 3 weeks ago. I went to the doctors this afternoon for the results and they had received a letter stating that I had mildly abnormal cells and would need a repeat smear in 6 months and there was nothing to worry about. However, the biopsy results hadn't been received so the doctor said she would ring the hospital and call me. I've just got home to a message on the answerphone from the doctor to say that she has phoned the hospital and the biopsy has revealed a CIN 2/3 which means I need urgent treatment. I just can't believe it On the day I had the colposcopy I had to also have an ultra sound scan on my gall bladder as what had previously been thought to be a stomach ulcer wasn't responding to treatment and I was in a great deal of pain constantly. The results from that have now come back and are fine, which points to the ulcer so I've got to go in two weeks to see the consultant again with a view to having another endoscopy (tube down throat) This is all on top of huge polyp/cyst type things that keep appearing on my jaw line and in my hair. I just feel like crying now. Ashley is now home from school and I'm trying to be "normal" but I just don't think I can keep it up. This is on top of my divorce that's taken 4 years to go through being made absolute 2 weeks ago, and the person who I hoped I would be spending the rest of my life with being unable to give me any sort of commitment above 2 evenings a week if I'm lucky! So last night, I told him that it was over. We have argued so much over it recently and I just can't get through to him. He says he loves me more than anything but that's not enough. Plus anyone who has seen my holiday thread today will know that I walked into an office with 4 inches of standing water on the floor after a radiator joint burst in the night. Sorry for ranting, but I had to get it off my chest. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Paola Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 Oh Joojoo So sorry to hear you are having such a rough time at the mo Not very good on advice regarding health, just hope the docs get on top it all for you. Sounds like you deserve better on the man front Do not be sorry about getting things off your chest, that is what we are here for Big hugs coming your way *squeeze* Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
little chickadee Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 Hugs from me too. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ziggy Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 So sorry to hear of all those troubles, it all does seem a bit too much to deal with... I hope all health issues get better very soon... Take good care of yourself.... Big hugs... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Egluntyne Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 You poor love. I'm sure when you have sorted your health issues out you will be better placed to make a decision about the man in your life. Come and rant here anytime, especially if it helps you hold it together fro Ashley. Lots of love. PS Him Indoors has had a couple of endoscopies. He says the anticipation is worse than the actual procedure, (and he is a big wuss ) so try not to worry too much. xx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Snowy Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 Oh dear Joojoo, sorry to hear about all this - one problem at a time would be bad enough, but when they all come at once! Keep your chin up and just take one day at a time Hon, then come and get it off your chest on here. xxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bellekatz Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 Hope things get better for you soon ((hugs)) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Goosey Lucy Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 Sorry to hear how tough you are having things Joojoo, I can only sympathise and echo what everyone else has said. Sending you lots of hugs and tlc, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chelsea Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 It never rains but it poors eh Jue? So sorry to hear how horrible everything is at the moment no wonder you are feeling down. I really hope everything is sorted out soon health wise and you are back to your normal self very soon. I really think booking the holiday is a great idea, days of warm weather and sunshine will soon put your health and your outlook for the future much more into perspective. Sending positive vibes and hugs your way. Keep smiling and you will get through it all. Remember - these things are certainly sent to "try us" Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
susanbb Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 Sorry to hear about your problems. Feel free to "rant" here whenever you need to. Take care and sending hugs to you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mirkwood Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 bless you, get away recharge. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theherd123 Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 Huge hugs Joojoo. Im so sorry to hear its all getting a bit much for you You are doing the right thing by dealing with all your health problems even though they probably seem never ending right now. Once sorted you will feel much better im sure - try and stay positive. As for your partner if you have had enough then you have made the right decision - concentrate on yourself and your child and enjoy your holiday away. We are all here for you so feel free to vent any time you wish. Lots of love and positive thoughts xox Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Joojoo Posted February 26, 2008 Author Share Posted February 26, 2008 Thanks everyone. You really are all so lovely on here. I honestly don't know what I would do without this forum. I just couldn't believe it when I got home to the answer phone message. Everything else had been a bit fraught but that was just the straw that finished me off. After the doc saying that everything was going to be fine at my appointment to then getting that message less than an hour later was just horrendous. I've calmed down a bit now. My friend phoned so I ended up in the conservatory (Ashley was on xbox upstairs) crying on the phohe to her for an hour and feel bit better for it. Didn't help that Sainsbury's turned up early to deliver the shopping and I looked like a bull frog!! hey ho! I'm sure the delivery man will cope I had an endoscopy a few years ago and although it's horrid I know I'll live. It's the results from this afternoon that I'm far more worried about. I've got to phone the hospital first thing tomorrow so hopefully I'll know a bit more then. I'm just scared stupid about it at the moment. x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Couperwife Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 oh, jue, love and hugs from the couper ranch. cathy x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
baby bears mum Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 Sending you huge hugs sweetheart. Put yourself and your little boy first - if your partner is meant to be then it will be. (And if its not then what the heck it's only a man!!!) Hope things go OK tomorrow will be thinking of you. Helen xxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
clucky1 Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 I am Thinking of you and sending loads of HHHHHHHhhhhhhhuuuuuugggs ! Please keep thinking that you have LOADS of friends out here thinking of you. Keep smiling - even at the XBOX ! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hillfamily Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 Oh JooJoo - so sorry Sending you (((((big hugs))))) I really hope life improves for you very soon - we're always here to listen so just talk when you need to xx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 gosh, can't believe they left that sort of news on an answerphone! Wishing you all the best, hope you get well soon xxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nicki9 Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 big hugs coming your way! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
riane Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 Oh poor you. Its probably not the right time to make any long term relationship decisions. You have got so much on at the mo! I always find list making a comfort because instead of all the mess running around in my head I can see the problem in smaller pieces. I would write down the immediate essential things to do, the meduim pressing problems and then the long term things to try and sort out. Get the emergency things done one at a time, the rest will get its time later. hang on in there lts of love to you Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tiggy Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 oh jojo you poor thing,, it will be OK, \\cin 2/3 is what is known as pre cancerous changes, it can take years for it to progress but a colposcopy will get rid of the cells that are causing the problem. it is like having a smear but a local is applied to the cervix & a laser used to remove the cells at the entrance to the womb. It sounds scary but not too bad really, you will need smears every year for a while. Changes at the neck of the womb are normally caused by HPV virus, there is a new vaccine for young girls that are not sexually active yet to protect them but it is not yet part of the national program as far a s I know, some religious groups are objecting because they think that it will encourage promiscuity!!!! On the man front I sympathise, once you are in better health & frame of mind I'm sure you'll sort things out. Rant to us anytime you like. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
The Dogmother Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 PMing you Jue... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ain't Nobody Here Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 Really sorry to hear you're having such a rotten time, JooJoo . That sounds like a reassuring bit of advice from Anne (always amazes me, the wealth of knowledge on here ). I hope you get back on track soon. You know we'll all be thinking about you. You did make me laugh with your "bullfrog" comment . Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Olly Posted February 26, 2008 Share Posted February 26, 2008 Oh Joojoo poor you - these things always come 'in battalions' don't they not just one at a time. Can't help wondering if stress isn't contributing at least to the cysts and the ulcer! You will look back and laugh at all this and think 'how on earth did I get through it' but you'll do it like we all do, one day at a time. Bear up, and come on here and share it any time. lots of hugs. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...