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Sorry I really need to get some things off my chest as I just feel like screaming at the moment!

 

After having 2 abnormal smear tests in the past 6 months I had to go for a colposcopy 3 weeks ago. I went to the doctors this afternoon for the results and they had received a letter stating that I had mildly abnormal cells and would need a repeat smear in 6 months and there was nothing to worry about. However, the biopsy results hadn't been received so the doctor said she would ring the hospital and call me. I've just got home to a message on the answerphone from the doctor to say that she has phoned the hospital and the biopsy has revealed a CIN 2/3 which means I need urgent treatment.

 

I just can't believe it :anxious: On the day I had the colposcopy I had to also have an ultra sound scan on my gall bladder as what had previously been thought to be a stomach ulcer wasn't responding to treatment and I was in a great deal of pain constantly. The results from that have now come back and are fine, which points to the ulcer so I've got to go in two weeks to see the consultant again with a view to having another endoscopy (tube down throat) :vom: This is all on top of huge polyp/cyst type things that keep appearing on my jaw line and in my hair. I just feel like crying now. Ashley is now home from school and I'm trying to be "normal" but I just don't think I can keep it up.

 

This is on top of my divorce that's taken 4 years to go through being made absolute 2 weeks ago, and the person who I hoped I would be spending the rest of my life with being unable to give me any sort of commitment above 2 evenings a week if I'm lucky! So last night, I told him that it was over. We have argued so much over it recently and I just can't get through to him. He says he loves me more than anything but that's not enough.

 

Plus anyone who has seen my holiday thread today will know that I walked into an office with 4 inches of standing water on the floor after a radiator joint burst in the night.

 

Sorry for ranting, but I had to get it off my chest.

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Oh Joojoo :( So sorry to hear you are having such a rough time at the mo :( Not very good on advice regarding health, just hope the docs get on top it all for you. Sounds like you deserve better on the man front :?

 

Do not be sorry about getting things off your chest, that is what we are here for :wink: Big hugs coming your way *squeeze*

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You poor love.

 

I'm sure when you have sorted your health issues out you will be better placed to make a decision about the man in your life.

 

Come and rant here anytime, especially if it helps you hold it together fro Ashley.

 

Lots of love.

 

PS

 

Him Indoors has had a couple of endoscopies. He says the anticipation is worse than the actual procedure, (and he is a big wuss :roll:) so try not to worry too much.

xx

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It never rains but it poors eh Jue? :roll:

 

So sorry to hear how horrible everything is at the moment :( no wonder you are feeling down. I really hope everything is sorted out soon health wise and you are back to your normal self very soon.

 

I really think booking the holiday is a great idea, days of warm weather and sunshine will soon put your health and your outlook for the future much more into perspective. :D

 

Sending positive vibes and hugs your way.

 

Keep smiling and you will get through it all. Remember - these things are certainly sent to "try us" :wink:

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Huge hugs Joojoo.

 

Im so sorry to hear its all getting a bit much for you :(

 

You are doing the right thing by dealing with all your health problems even though they probably seem never ending right now. Once sorted you will feel much better im sure - try and stay positive.

 

As for your partner if you have had enough then you have made the right decision - concentrate on yourself and your child and enjoy your holiday away.

 

We are all here for you so feel free to vent any time you wish.

 

Lots of love and positive thoughts xox

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Thanks everyone. You really are all so lovely on here. I honestly don't know what I would do without this forum.

 

I just couldn't believe it when I got home to the answer phone message. Everything else had been a bit fraught but that was just the straw that finished me off. After the doc saying that everything was going to be fine at my appointment to then getting that message less than an hour later was just horrendous.

 

I've calmed down a bit now. My friend phoned so I ended up in the conservatory (Ashley was on xbox upstairs) crying on the phohe to her for an hour and feel bit better for it. Didn't help that Sainsbury's turned up early to deliver the shopping and I looked like a bull frog!! :oops: hey ho! I'm sure the delivery man will cope :lol:

 

I had an endoscopy a few years ago and although it's horrid I know I'll live. It's the results from this afternoon that I'm far more worried about. I've got to phone the hospital first thing tomorrow so hopefully I'll know a bit more then. I'm just scared stupid about it at the moment.

 

x

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Oh poor you. Its probably not the right time to make any long term relationship decisions. You have got so much on at the mo! I always find list making a comfort because instead of all the mess running around in my head I can see the problem in smaller pieces. I would write down the immediate essential things to do, the meduim pressing problems and then the long term things to try and sort out. Get the emergency things done one at a time, the rest will get its time later. hang on in there :D lts of love to you :D

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oh jojo you poor thing,, it will be OK, \\cin 2/3 is what is known as pre cancerous changes, it can take years for it to progress but a colposcopy will get rid of the cells that are causing the problem. it is like having a smear but a local is applied to the cervix & a laser used to remove the cells at the entrance to the womb. It sounds scary but not too bad really, you will need smears every year for a while. Changes at the neck of the womb are normally caused by HPV virus, there is a new vaccine for young girls that are not sexually active yet to protect them but it is not yet part of the national program as far a s I know, some religious groups are objecting because they think that it will encourage promiscuity!!!!

 

On the man front I sympathise, once you are in better health & frame of mind I'm sure you'll sort things out.

 

Rant to us anytime you like.

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Oh Joojoo poor you - these things always come 'in battalions' don't they not just one at a time.

 

Can't help wondering if stress isn't contributing at least to the cysts and the ulcer! You will look back and laugh at all this and think 'how on earth did I get through it' but you'll do it like we all do, one day at a time.

 

Bear up, and come on here and share it any time. lots of hugs.

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