fluffyfeet Posted April 28, 2010 Share Posted April 28, 2010 Having problems with a the Big Black Dog chasing me at the moment. Don't know why - but it couldn't have picked a worse time. Still having persistent headaches which make me feel pretty rough and I have a very nasty feeling about my job, having had a difference of opinion with someone at work who is a lot more important to the company than a part time dogsbody! And I've now had to have 2 days off as my son has been poorly so when I walk back in I've not only got the situation with the other member of staff to deal with (boss was stuck in US when it happened) I've got the 'boss with no children/pets/commitments/money worries/comes into work ill' to deal with too - I feel sick just thinking about it Changed from Virgin to Sky and am fed up of dealing with idiots! Want to book a holiday to Lanzarote to coincide with my folks being there in Sept and am terrified to commit in case (a) Am out of work, or (b) another blinking volcano explodes. I feel like Alice falling down the rabbit hole and can't stop. I've been on medication in the past but don't want to do this again. Everything was going so well - I just want to scream at the world. Dawn xx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Space Chick Posted April 28, 2010 Share Posted April 28, 2010 I'm sorry Dawn It always comes at the worst time, as that is when we are feeling vulnerable and it can attack and we can't shake it off. Make sure you eat plenty of B vitamin foods, and try and have every day with some sunshine and you time. I know its easy to say, but look yourself in the mirror every night and tell yourself that "Today has been a good day because...." and find something good about that day. It could be as small as seeing a pretty flower, or something bigger like spending good time with the chickens. But whatever it is, there is always some positive to be found in every day, and if you focus on that when you go to bed then you may be able to stay away from medication. However, if medication is needed, it is needed, it is not a sign of failure or weakness. Sending hugs xxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Groovychook Posted April 28, 2010 Share Posted April 28, 2010 I'm so sorry you're feeling down Dawn I just wanted to echo what Debs has already said... it will pass, but maybe you just need a little help! Sending you lots of love & hugs. xx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Looney Posted April 28, 2010 Share Posted April 28, 2010 Hi there, sounds like things are really getting on top of you But on the positive side you have managed to write how you are feeling down which is always a good step towards facing and dealing with the situation and fingers crossed this will help you face the pesky dog too. Please don't worry about things like volcanos, you can do absolutely nothing about them. Book yourself a holiday! Focus on things you can change and focus on how you intend to react to/ deal with the things that you really have no control over at all. If your child is ill, they're ill. Out of your control. Holding your head up and facing your boss when you stride back into work is within your control. Sorry if this sounds obvious but I am guilty of not following my own advice and quite often need OH to remind me Sending you enormous, great hugs xxxxxxxxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Couperwife Posted April 28, 2010 Share Posted April 28, 2010 cant add anything except (((hugs))) we are here if you want to scream / rant / throw something / laugh / cry / explode... cathy x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lesley Posted April 28, 2010 Share Posted April 28, 2010 So sorry you're feeling like that Dawn - very good advice above, I hope it soon passes. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Chucky Mama Posted April 29, 2010 Share Posted April 29, 2010 I've been on medication in the past but don't want to do this again. As Debs said, don't feel that you are a failure by using medication to help you through this if you need to. Come here and scream all you like if it helps. Is there any time in your hectic day to take a little exercise to get the endorphins going ? You sound as if you have had a pretty tough time and are doing very well to only think about screaming. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Seagazer Posted April 29, 2010 Share Posted April 29, 2010 I'm sorry you're feeling down, don't forget that it can strike even if everything is going well. Come on here and let rip, I'm sure it will help. A spot of chicken watching will probably help too. Don't feel a failure if you have to go back on the tablets, sometimes its what we need to get us back on track. Sending lots of positive thoughts and hugs. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alis girls Posted April 29, 2010 Share Posted April 29, 2010 Hi Dawn - have you seen your GP? as somone whoseblack dog hits me now and then I know where you are coming from. At present - i am ok but anything can tip me down that black hole. Book that holiday - it gives you something to look forward too. People without children don t understand if kids are ill. i dont know any mum who doesnt stress when they take time off 4 their kids and we dont get paid. Eat well, rest and that black dog will leave you in peace. You have support on here. Ali x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chickencam Posted April 29, 2010 Share Posted April 29, 2010 The advice on here is good, we are always here for a rant or a supportive virtual hug. Don't be hard on yourself and I hope things look up soon. Take one step at a time and the journey will take care of itself. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
The Dogmother Posted April 29, 2010 Share Posted April 29, 2010 So sorry to hear that Dawn. The advice above is good - exercise and daylight are good, non-chemical remedies that will help, but don't feel bad about seeing your doc for some medication if it helps you to feel better about life. Oh, and did I mention that chocolate contains lots of feel good chemicals? Settle down with a bar of that and you'll soon feel better. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tiggy Posted April 29, 2010 Share Posted April 29, 2010 been there done that!! know how you feel, previous posts have lots of good advice, but you know where I am if you feel like a chat or a shoulder Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Valkyrie Posted April 29, 2010 Share Posted April 29, 2010 You scream away! Just give us a warning to reach for the earplugs first. Sounds like you must get a zapper for that nasty dog. If we could we would chase it away for you. Sending bear hugs and hope you feel better soon. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
keyhole kate Posted April 29, 2010 Share Posted April 29, 2010 We could be twins!! I know just how you are feeling just remember you are not alone I have been on meds for years now and every time I think I am getting to a good place to cut back and off them Bam something else sets me off a bereavment, lost my job, I now have a new Job I hate, my tennant did a bunk honestly its never ending But I thank God for them and will continue to take them as long as I feel I need them because I know without them I would be an awful lot worse feel free to pm me If nothing else we can have a good scream together KK Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
patsylabrador Posted April 30, 2010 Share Posted April 30, 2010 Have you ever tried this? It's a kind of brain training to stop your mind going off down paths you don't want it to. I've used it a lot over the last few months! Think of something you love and makes you happy, for me it's clouds, I could watch them for hours imagining all the places they've come from, the lives they've travelled over. I know thats silly but I like it. Then, whenever you start going over bad things, conversations etc from your day, say NO! very firmly to yourself and think hard of the thing you've set as your good thought. It chases away the negative thoughts - I find it brilliant, please try it and please don't laugh at me! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Seagazer Posted April 30, 2010 Share Posted April 30, 2010 I think that sounds like a good idea and I might try it myself. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
keyhole kate Posted April 30, 2010 Share Posted April 30, 2010 Thanks patsylabrador I will definately give it a try KK Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
grracee Posted April 30, 2010 Share Posted April 30, 2010 Have you ever tried this? It's a kind of brain training to stop your mind going off down paths you don't want it to. I've used it a lot over the last few months!Think of something you love and makes you happy, for me it's clouds, I could watch them for hours imagining all the places they've come from, the lives they've travelled over. I know thats silly but I like it. Then, whenever you start going over bad things, conversations etc from your day, say NO! very firmly to yourself and think hard of the thing you've set as your good thought. It chases away the negative thoughts - I find it brilliant, please try it and please don't laugh at me! I agree, its a good idea to try and do something like that. I've suffered badly from panic attacks for a good 4/5 years now & a couple of years ago after i'd left school it all got ontop of me and I was suffering quite badly from depression. After getting fed up of staying in the house and going absolutely nowhere at all I got myself to a hypnotherapist and she told me that whenever you start thinking negative thoughts in your mind to go to your 'special place'. For example like patsylabrador said the clouds make her happy. For me it was my auntie's house in the countryside, I know it sounds silly but it does work! So I would give it a try! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fluffyfeet Posted April 30, 2010 Author Share Posted April 30, 2010 Hello and thank you all for the things you've said and the hugs - most appreciated. Am feeling a lot better this end of the week than I was at the beginning - been a bit of a rollercoaster but definitely going the right way. Kept myself really busy - and I'd completely forgotten I was going to my first ever Opera on Tuesday (some of you might recall the thread about Popstar to Operastar and encouraging me to go). I absolutely loved it - went completely on my own which is normal for my theatre trips as none of my close friends are into 'that sort of thing'. And was blown away when it was sung in English. Apparently the English Touring Co always do - so The Marriage of Figaro was a total hit and I can definitely recommend it to anyone else who is curious but not sure just as I was. I went to my Townswomens Guild meet on Wednesday (first one for a bit as the subjects had gone a little boring) and I couldn't have picked a better week - a talk by a Community First Responder - who was a lovely man in a red jumpsuit, a bit like the Air Ambulance uniform. He even approached me at the end to see if I was interested in joining - perhaps he was concerned that I was a good 20 years younger than most of the ladies there I might be 'ideally placed' so to speak should one of them require 'zapping'. Thurs night - met up with some old school friends and had a good laugh. And finally tonight OH took us out for tea. And the best bit of all is tomorrow we are putting the panels together for my - wait for it - 15ft x 6ft x 6ft WIR - and I've even found a bantam breeder literally in the next village - and ordered some Barbu Duccles, a Maran, a Black (fingers crossed) Pekin, a Wyandotte (if she's a hen) and one more I can't remember, and I'm already thinking about ringing her and adding another couple. They aren't even eggs yet so will have to be patient but I should be able to have something around July. Good grief - I've just read this back to myself and now know that I'm feeling like daft old me again - the warning signs were there that I was slipping and I should have heeded them. Once again thank you for letting me blab - it really did help to know you're all there XXXXXX Would someone be good enough to to put one of those Mr Tickle hug things on here from me to you all. Dawn xx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Groovychook Posted May 1, 2010 Share Posted May 1, 2010 So good to hear that you're feeling more like your old self! Sounds like you've got lots of exciting things going on! xx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Valkyrie Posted May 1, 2010 Share Posted May 1, 2010 He even approached me at the end to see if I was interested in joining - perhaps he was concerned that I was a good 20 years younger than most of the ladies there I might be 'ideally placed' so to speak should one of them require 'zapping' Brilliant! Glad you are feeling on the up. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
